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I just thought i'd say hello! How's everyone going???

So I'll probably on here more now. I've just been lazy and dumb...

Gahh....

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Love ya!!!

Mia

Chapter 2

I stepped outside of the airplane, following Gabe. He was different...his attitude had changed on the plane...he was getting a lot more carefree and happier. It was cute though, and his mood was affecting mine...I felt relived to be away from Joe and Zach. And I would be for a couple weeks, until Joe decided to meet me at one of the stops on the tour.

Now of course he had done just about everything to keep me from going...he had been extremely pissed...but I was hoping it'd be worth it. 

"Come on, Audrey!" He pulled me through the crowds of rushing people to baggage claim. We had so much musical equipment it would take forever to pack up the bus, which was supposed to be meeting us here and taking us all to the first stop.

"Now," Gabe said as he stood near me at baggage claim, "Tonight, we're going to party. And you are going to participate. We don't start the shows until tomorrow, so we can be carefree and act like idiot. It's going to be a big family reunion. And I can't waiit for you to meet everyone."

I smiled. "Oh Gabe, you know me. I'd rather be watching the party on a TV monitor in my room."

"Well, it's going to be a bunk now." He chuckled.

The luggage carousel started moving. I saw my two bags and black guiatar case, and all of Gabe's stuff come out first.

"I'm stocked!!" He sang as he pulled his stuff off the conveyer belt. 

I giggled. 

"Aww, look at Audrey. You're happy!" He teased. "I'll find you a better man than that sissy you have now."

I laughed at the comment that normally would have pissed me off and made me defensive. "I'd like to see you try."

"It's a deal, if someone better comes along you owe me 20 bucks."

"It's a bet." We shook on it.

"Come on, I see Ryland over there. I bet the rest of them are waiting!" 

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Well, I dissapearred for awhile there. And I'm sorry!!!!

:[ I'm so unmotivated. I can't gauruntee posting often, but I'll try my hardest to do a chapter every few weeks. Me and my hectic schedule...yeah right. I'm just a lazy-ass xD

Chapter 1: Out Of The Box

**Audrey's POV**

I tripped and fell down, hearing his cackle from behind me.

“Get up, you whore.” Joe laughed dryly, his tone rude and mocking.

I sobbed, using the wall to stand up, keeping my back towards him.

“Promise to never talk back again?” Joe grabbed my and yanked me towards him harshly.

“I never will again.” I promised, and my voice cracked. I looked down.

He slapped me across the face.

“Look me in the eyes, bitch.” His grip on my arm became tighter.

I trembled as I lifted my eyes to meet his. “I promise.”

“Good.” He smiled devilishly, before shoving me down.

Bleep Bleep Bleep

I woke up, breathing heavily. My alarm was going off. I slapped my hand on it until it turned off. Nightmares. Gah. I hated them. But it didn’t matter; they were no different from reality.

 Joe was my “Boyfriend” - whatever the hell that was supposed to be. He beat me and abused me, so in my mind, he was more of a monster. I was terrified of him. He was the reason why my life was horrible, he was the reason I wanted to die. He was what made me tread the fine line between insanity and suicide. I’d been putting up with it for almost two years.

Most people would tell someone, right? And I would’ve, but he had threatened to kill my family and friends if I did. And although I didn’t have much of a family, it was my one friend who mattered.

Gabe Saporta was the only real friend, or any type of care and comfort that I had. He was the only person I trusted, and without him, I’d be dead. I had met him in a store, looking for music. We had bonded over The Cure. That had been about 3 years ago.

I stood up and walked into my bathroom, and I brushed my hair and teeth, and changed into some jeans and a hoodie. I was supposed to go over to Gabe’s later today, but it was 9:00 AM now, he wanted me over at around 2. He was the lead singer of a band called Cobra Starship, and he was leaving on tour this weekend, which meant I wouldn’t see him for the whole summer, and that would make things even worse.

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I stared at what had been my lunch. I flushed the toilet and went to brush and floss my teeth. Then I used mouthwash. I knew it was bad for me, but I only did it once or twice a day. I wouldn’t call it an eating disorder, as I only did it when I was under a lot of stress. Which was always nowadays. But nobody knew, so I didn’t have to worry.

My cell phone rang loudly, interrupting me from my thoughts. “Hello?” I asked as I picked it up.

“Hey Audrey” Gabe’s familiar voice reached me.

“Are you coming over? I leave in two days and I really need to talk to you.” He sounded busy.

“Yeah I’ll be over in a couple minutes, is that alright?” I asked.

“Perfect.” He answered. “Love you, babe.”

“Love you too, Gabe.” I smiled, and I wished he was here. He always asked me why I didn’t smile.  I never told him why. I knew he was worried about me, too. Gabe always watched me closely. He knew I had Joe, but he didn’t know what Joe did to me.

Gabe only lived a couple minutes away. I walked downstairs, and grabbed the cars keys. I saw my older brother, Zach, making out with his girlfriend/whore, Lane on the couch. Gross.

“Go away Audrey.” Zach looked up, glaring.

“Yeah, go away you little bitch.” Lane said.

“This is my house,  Lane. “ Just because Zach pays you to be his girlfriend doesn’t mean you own the place.” I cocked my head.

Lane opened her mouth to speak, but then closed it.

“Fuck off, Audrey.”Zach hissed.

"Maybe someday you’ll regret saying that." I shrugged before walking out to the car. I drove to Gabe’s house.

When I got there, I sighed. I would miss him so much this summer.  I knocked on his front door.

“Hey Audrey.” He smiled as he opened the door.

“Hey Gabe.” I smiled back.

He leaned forward and wrapped his arms around me in a huge hug.

“Can we talk?” Gabe asked, awkwardly.

“Sure,” I said, confused.

“This way,” He walked me into his kitchen.

He house is always a complete disaster area. They’re  always clothes and stuff everywhere, but it didn’t look so bad, today.

“What’s wrong?” I ask when I sat down.

“Well, we just got a new tour bus, and it has an extra bunk, and well, I was wondering if you wanted to come with us.” He said.

I sighed in relief.

“What?” he asked.

“I thought you were going to propose to me” I laughed.

He laughed out loud. “Audrey, you know I would never freak you out like that.”

“I know. But about the tour, I just don’t know-“

“Come on Audrey. I really miss you when I’m away, and I want you to see what it’s like. I can even teach you some stuff, and there would be so many job opportunities to see, so many people you can meet….”He trailed off.

I sigh, weighing my options.”What about Zach and Joe?”

“They’re big boys they can handle themselves. They can come visit on the road or whatever. “ Gabe said quickly.

I bit my lower lip. “You know I’d love to, but-“ Something snapped inside of me. “You know what? I’m going. When do we leave?”

“Now that’s what I’m talking about!” Gabe smiled, then hugged me.

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I stood beside Gabe at the airport, waiting for our flight to board. The first stop of the tour was in New York.  Joe had been extremely pissed with me, and he beat me, but it was worth it. I would get some freedom, and live life a little. I smiled t myself. For once I felt happy, I felt at home.

“We are now boarding flight number 2234 to New York.” A voice came over the loudspeaker.

“That’s us.” Gabe looked at me. “Ready?”

I nodded. “Let’s go.” I picked up my bags and smiled at him as we walked to the gate.

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OKay so for whatever reason the banner didn't work grrr...

Chapter 1 Comment Buzz and stuff....how'd yah like it??...sorry it took me so long..lol

Love - Mia

WELLLLLLL. I don't exactly have Chapter 1 completely written up yet... :[

BUT! I have some character pictures...

SOOOOOOOO...

William (Obviously!!) :]

 Yess. He is very attractive :]]

Gabe!!

Okay so I just found this picture, and I have classified it as the cutest thing everr...haha.  I mean honestly....how can you look at this and not think it's adorable ??? Anywayyssss

Audreyy:

Yeah, soo I basically used Mars Argo becuase she's disgustingly pretty and Audrey is supposed to be really pretty toooo. Except she's supposed to have longer hair. And look a bit sickly(But we'll talk about that later) :]

Haha. Joe Geoffreys. YEAH! THE SITUATION!! Hahaa. xD But hes a douchebag and so is Joe Geoffreys. He's a tad old...but whatever..haah xD

SOOOOOO That was it... for the main characters...If there's anyone else I'll add them in later.

I might not be able to post for like....another week because I'm going on vacayytionnn! :] And usually I take a nice hiatus from the interweb :]

so comment and buzz and stufff :}}

PROLOGUE: Down & Out

*AUDREY KATHARINE DENNIS*

As far as love goes, there's only been pain. In fact, I can't recall a time there has ever been love. I only know pain. And not just emotional pain, but physical pain, too. I've been through alot. And my one source of comfort, the person whome I trusted my life with, was hardly ever available. And he didn't know the worst of what happened behind locked doors. I couldn't imagine what he'd do if her found out. I didn't want to imagine what he'd do if he found out.

 I wanted somebody - needed somebody to be there. Because pretty soon I was going to lose it. As far as answers go, I couldn't come up with anything besides suicide. The horror would take over my life. It wouldn't matter once I was gone. Nobody would care. And that, that was what hurt the most. It ate me alive, tore me apart. There was nothing left. And pretty soon...my will to survive wouldn't exist either. And the only thing that kept it together was him.

"Always up or down, never down and out. You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces."

Down and Out - The Academy Is

So, yeah. I'm just chillin at my grandma's house....and I've decided that I am nottt going to do a Jack Barakat story. Imma do a William Beckett one...so comment and shiz because I want to have SOME people reading it...lol

BLAHH!!

Holy crap. I like...forgot about this place...

What happened was mi madre got me a FaceBook....and well...you know how that goes...

I got addicted to Facebook....and never got on here....

WEll just recently I got my Facebook temporarily taken away...

So I'm gonna be on here more... hopefully...

OoH! and I'm starting a new fanfic....I'm bored with this one. (Losing It)

It's most likely going to be about Jack Barakat from ATL...mainly because I love him :]]]

So basically school is almost over....

7 Days...Then vayy cayy tionnn. :DDDDD

Oh, and have you guys ever heard of Mars Argo??

They are flipping ah-may-zinnggg!!! Like...no joke.

You should listen to them... Hah

So comment or whatever. what type of Fanfic do you want to see from mee??

Chapter 5: Whenever Things Get Good...

*Brittany Hansen's POV*

It was Friday night and Chris was walking over to we could hang out. I was in the middle of drying my hair when Alex texted me.

ALEX MY BETCH!!!:

Hey Dolly! :) Want to go to movies w/ every1? Invite Chris 2.

Brittany:

Already have plans w/ him.

ALEX MY BETCH!!!:

U 2 lovebirds! J Have fun. But STAY SAFE!

Brittany:

You're a douche.

ALEX MY BETCH!!!:

Yes, I am. Luv u 2 :)

I rolled my eyes. Me and Chris had been getting that lovebird shit all week. It was really awkward whenever it was brought up. I didn't like Chris like that . . . well, at least I TRIED not to.

About 20 minutes later I heard a noise. It was my obnoxious stepmom Olivia, babbling to someone. Gosh, I couldn't stand her/ She thought she could waltz right into my life and ruin it, which is what she'd been doing since I was 11.

I'd lived with my grandparents, until I was five, since I was kind of an "oops" baby. My parents didn't want me, so I lived with my grandparents. Then, finally, my dad took me in, and we got along, until he married Olivia of course.  It basically went downhill from there. I stopped spending time at home and stayed away from both my father and my stepmother as much as possible. Now since I had a driver license it was so much easier.

I walked down the stairs to see who Olivia was harassing THIS time, and heard this sentence coming from her mouth.

"-Never thought someone like Brittany could get a boyfriend but here you are-" She embraced Christofer, who was standing awkwardly in the doorway.

Oh, gosh, she was going to ruin everything. My life was officially over. What if he took her seriously? I could puke at the fake sugary sweetness in her voice. I cut myself off. I wasn't going to let this happen, I couldn't. I'd put up with it for too long.

"Olivia, please leave Christofer alone.  He doesn't want to be molested by a fifty year old woman." I knew she was only like 40, but I could care less. I continued walking down the stairway until I was standing in between Olivia and Christofer.

 "Watch your tongue you spoiled brat, if your father-"

"Yeah, okay, whatever." I cut her off "I'll be back by ten." I grabbed Chris's hand and bolted through the front doorway, slamming the door behind me. Wow, she pissed me off.

We walked back to the park, and I pretended the whole stepmom thing had never happened. We sat under the tree again, talking.

"Do you like it here, Chris? I asked him.

"I like it a lot." He replied, sighing in contentment.

"Well, you'll hate it soon." I giggled, only half-joking.

"I couldn't hate it unless you weren't here!" he laughed. He had a cute laugh.

I smirked. "Do you move around much?"

"Yeah, my dad's job. He's always getting transferred. It really sucks."

"I can't imagine. I've lived here my whole life"

"Really?" He sounded surprised.

"Well, except when I was younger I lived with my grandparents but that's whatever. It doesn't matter."

We sat in silence. I knew that comment ruined it. I didn't want to be telling him my life story after only knowing him for about one week. I wanted to hold his hand again like last night. It had felt so nice. . . but I didn't want to give him the wrong idea. So I didn't.

"What's up with your stepmom?" He asked suddenly. "Sorry, you don't have to answer that if you don't want to."

"No, it's okay. I don't know where to start. I hate her, she hates me. I'm an outcast in that family." I say flatly. Not wanting to say anything more.

"Ever considered living with your real mom?" He asked.

"I've never actually met her."

"Wow, that sucks."

"You know it." Then I laugh. "Let's get out of here before I go depressed. Wanna rent a movie?" I ask.

"Sure, sounds good." He smiles and takes my hand again.

Thoughts? This took awhile cause I've had alot of work...new chap up later this week.

Peace.Love.

Mia!

Chapter 5: Whenever Things Get Good...

*Brittany Hansen's POV*

It was Friday night and Chris was walking over to we could hang out. I was in the middle of drying my hair when Alex texted me.

ALEX MY BETCH!!!:

Hey Dolly! :) Want to go to movies w/ every1? Invite Chris 2.

Brittany:

Already have plans w/ him.

ALEX MY BETCH!!!:

U 2 lovebirds! J Have fun. But STAY SAFE!

Brittany:

You're a douche.

ALEX MY BETCH!!!:

Yes, I am. Luv u 2 :)

I rolled my eyes. Me and Chris had been getting that lovebird shit all week. It was really awkward whenever it was brought up. I didn't like Chris like that . . . well, at least I TRIED not to.

About 20 minutes later I heard a noise. It was my obnoxious stepmom Olivia, babbling to someone. Gosh, I couldn't stand her/ She thought she could waltz right into my life and ruin it, which is what she'd been doing since I was 11.

I'd lived with my grandparents, until I was five, since I was kind of an "oops" baby. My parents didn't want me, so I lived with my grandparents. Then, finally, my dad took me in, and we got along, until he married Olivia of course.  It basically went downhill from there. I stopped spending time at home and stayed away from both my father and my stepmother as much as possible. Now since I had a driver license it was so much easier.

I walked down the stairs to see who Olivia was harassing THIS time, and heard this sentence coming from her mouth.

"-Never thought someone like Brittany could get a boyfriend but here you are-" She embraced Christofer, who was standing awkwardly in the doorway.

Oh, gosh, she was going to ruin everything. My life was officially over. What if he took her seriously? I could puke at the fake sugary sweetness in her voice. I cut myself off. I wasn't going to let this happen, I couldn't. I'd put up with it for too long.

"Olivia, please leave Christofer alone.  He doesn't want to be molested by a fifty year old woman." I knew she was only like 40, but I could care less. I continued walking down the stairway until I was standing in between Olivia and Christofer.

 "Watch your tongue you spoiled brat, if your father-"

"Yeah, okay, whatever." I cut her off "I'll be back by ten." I grabbed Chris's hand and bolted through the front doorway, slamming the door behind me. Wow, she pissed me off.

We walked back to the park, and I pretended the whole stepmom thing had never happened. We sat under the tree again, talking.

"Do you like it here, Chris? I asked him.

"I like it a lot." He replied, sighing in contentment.

"Well, you'll hate it soon." I giggled, only half-joking.

"I couldn't hate it unless you weren't here!" he laughed. He had a cute laugh.

I smirked. "Do you move around much?"

"Yeah, my dad's job. He's always getting transferred. It really sucks."

"I can't imagine. I've lived here my whole life"

"Really?" He sounded surprised.

"Well, except when I was younger I lived with my grandparents but that's whatever. It doesn't matter."

We sat in silence. I knew that comment ruined it. I didn't want to be telling him my life story after only knowing him for about one week. I wanted to hold his hand again like last night. It had felt so nice. . . but I didn't want to give him the wrong idea. So I didn't.

"What's up with your stepmom?" He asked suddenly. "Sorry, you don't have to answer that if you don't want to."

"No, it's okay. I don't know where to start. I hate her, she hates me. I'm an outcast in that family." I say flatly. Not wanting to say anything more.

"Ever considered living with your real mom?" He asked.

"I've never actually met her."

"Wow, that sucks."

"You know it." Then I laugh. "Let's get out of here before I go depressed. Wanna rent a movie?" I ask.

"Sure, sounds good." He smiles and takes my hand again.

Thoughts? This took awhile cause I've had alot of work...new chap up later this week.

Peace.Love.

Mia!